Goals, Dreams, and Lists
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wordweaverlynn's journal got rather long, so I am posting it here instead of there.
I have always had a vague yearning for purpose. I recently found a list of questions from when I was 12 or 13 that started "What is the purpose of life?"
My life has been a series of zig-zags.
My daily "to-do" list is written on the backs of envelopes, as are my various shopping lists. I also have a PDA for longer term stuff, and things that need an alarm to remind me, like dentist's appointments. I keep a journal on an erratic basis, and have since I was 25, with earlier attempts starting when I was 12. I also keep a financial balance sheet on a quarterly basis, a legacy of working in accounting.
I have always wanted to be a writer, since I was about 14. I am, but not in the way I wanted to be, I write for hire for a publisher. I want to expand my horizons, but I cannot seem to actually keep my butt in the chair and write. I want to publish books, but the one I finished never sold. I am not a fiction writer, which is where the glory is, if not the money.
I don't have goals I keep track of, like "see Paris before I die" or "make a million dollars". I just want to see my name as the author of a book, and I haven't. Maybe if and when I do that, I'll come up with something else. And no, self-publishing doesn't count. When I didn't have a partner, I wanted one. Martin and I recently celebrated 20 years living together, but it wasn't a goal, it happened a day at a time.
Right now, my life is centered around myself and my partner, my coven, and to a lesser extent, the local Pagan community, with side trips to the fannish community, the local bi, poly, etc communities, and vague forays into Democratic politics. I'm aware of the later because tonight I'm attending the precinct caucus, and have to decide if I want to plunge further this year or not.
Love, pleasure, and enlightment have been my goals and loadstars. "All acts of Love and Pleasure are my rituals" has been my motto for many years. Love and pleasure are my path to enlightenment.
wordweaverlynn's journal got rather long, so I am posting it here instead of there. I have always had a vague yearning for purpose. I recently found a list of questions from when I was 12 or 13 that started "What is the purpose of life?"
My life has been a series of zig-zags.
My daily "to-do" list is written on the backs of envelopes, as are my various shopping lists. I also have a PDA for longer term stuff, and things that need an alarm to remind me, like dentist's appointments. I keep a journal on an erratic basis, and have since I was 25, with earlier attempts starting when I was 12. I also keep a financial balance sheet on a quarterly basis, a legacy of working in accounting.
I have always wanted to be a writer, since I was about 14. I am, but not in the way I wanted to be, I write for hire for a publisher. I want to expand my horizons, but I cannot seem to actually keep my butt in the chair and write. I want to publish books, but the one I finished never sold. I am not a fiction writer, which is where the glory is, if not the money.
I don't have goals I keep track of, like "see Paris before I die" or "make a million dollars". I just want to see my name as the author of a book, and I haven't. Maybe if and when I do that, I'll come up with something else. And no, self-publishing doesn't count. When I didn't have a partner, I wanted one. Martin and I recently celebrated 20 years living together, but it wasn't a goal, it happened a day at a time.
Right now, my life is centered around myself and my partner, my coven, and to a lesser extent, the local Pagan community, with side trips to the fannish community, the local bi, poly, etc communities, and vague forays into Democratic politics. I'm aware of the later because tonight I'm attending the precinct caucus, and have to decide if I want to plunge further this year or not.
Love, pleasure, and enlightment have been my goals and loadstars. "All acts of Love and Pleasure are my rituals" has been my motto for many years. Love and pleasure are my path to enlightenment.
